Saturday, September 30, 2006


Set 1...


Before reading any further... Read 1st the part 1 of this...

From this rate... I'm not gonna make it...

First day, first set... The venue was Greenvalley, Pasig... The venue was so damn big! I was mesmerized by its structure and the beauty of the lanes... But from the moment I entered its doors... My heart stared to beat violently... I was super nervous that time... But then, I still have to look cool... I started listening to my iPod to calm my nerves...

The rules were simple... Each set are composed of 10 games... The players have to finish all 5 sets in order to qualify (That's 50 games all in all...)... Another thing is... Average scores are observed... For females, they must at least have an average of 175... For males... Well, we must at least have an average of 185... That's too much for me... As in... I still have a problem dealing with my throws, and I'm not yet "one" with my ball... I still have problems dealing with my dear "cobalt" (the name I call my bowling ball...)...

"As soon as the pins are set and the lights are on, you may now commence your game... Goodluck to all and high scoring..."

Game started shortly when we arrived the building... The intensity went to the highest level when the "bigatin" players from different developmental orgs started to roll their first throw... Hearing thundering strikes from different sides of the building, made me more nervous... But then, it was my turn... I stood up and looked at the pins at the other side... Took a deep breath
and went on... A smile was seen upon my face when cobalt hit the pins... It made a very loud
thunderous strike... I was satisfied... Everything went as I want it too...

I spoke too soon... Habang tumatagal, nawawala... Tuluyan nang masira ang laro ko... Nothing is wrong with my throws... It's just that I'm too nervous that time... Nagmamadali na ako, ika nga... At nakakatakot din yung mga ka lanes ko dahil mga dati na silang national team members... Nakoh! Kung hindi lang sila magaganda! Woot! I'm thinking too much of my previous scores, kaya lalong nasira ang laro ko... At this rate... I'm not gonna make the tryouts... That's for sure...

After the game, I was really disappointed at my scores... I got an average of 156... I never even held the edge of the quota! Which was 185... Argh! Dammit... I guess I need more practice... Starting monday, I'm gonna work my ass of the whole day... Grr... I must make it! I must!!!

As I visited my blog, and looked at the number of comments... I was really upset... No one even bothered to say GOODLUCK! damn... Dun na nga lang ako kumukuha ng lakas eh... Sa chamba... Tapos wala pa... Anyhoo... BUSY naman siguro kasi ang mga kapitbahay kong bloggers at hindi sila makadapo sa aking maliit na bahay... Pero salamat ng marami sa mga bumati sa akin ng goodluck... Para sa inyo ang laban na ito... Anna, Pam, Vinkz, at kay Kaye... Panawagan sa mga DUMADAAN LANG... Magbasa naman kayo... Argh...

Sorry 'bout that... I'm not really in the mood to blog right now... *hithit ng hangin..*

Tomorrow, we'll be playing at Powerbowl located at Rockwell Powerplant... The home of TBAM... You could call that our "Homecourt" aside from SM Fairview... I will try my luck there... Hoping I could raise my average even for a bit... I need your support again guys... Wish me luck! Aja!...

Maybe I missing something in my life... Maybe I want something... Damn... I need someone... I want to be inspired once more... *sigh* I need a girlfriend... Anyone? Hehe... Asaness pa ko...

posted by icarus_05 @ 6:04 AM Comments: 10

Friday, September 29, 2006


The RP Bowling Team...


This is it...

Starting today until October 21 will be the start of the Try-Outs for the Bowling National Pool... It will be a very busy week for me... Practices and stuff...

Hinahanda na ang mga kagamitan para sa nasabing Event... Lahat ng mga protective tapes ay sinisigurong maayos ang pagkakagupit... Ang alcohol, upang pamproteksyon laban sa mga sugat na aming matatamo... Ang mga bola na sinisiguradong malinis at walang bahid ng langis... At syempre ang sarili ko... Kailangan ko na ring maghanda... Sapagkat ito na marahil ang aking pagkakataon ko, upang mapabago ang ating bansa... Kahit sa maliit na paraan lamang... Kung ako man ay pumasa sa try outs, sisiguraduhin namin na gagawin namin ang bansang ito na matagumpay... We're going to make this country proud... Tulad na lang ng ginawa nila: Paeng Nepomuceno... Who scored a perfect game during his championship match, using a NEW ball... (On the spot, few hours before the tournament, he bought a new ball because his ball was cracked..)... Biboy Rivera... Who recently got the title of World Champion... Who also scored a perfect game during the championship match...

Someday, I will be just like them... Proud to be Pinoy, and an athlete of my Country... With determination and hardwork, I know I can do it... Pero hindi ko magagawa iyon kung walang suporta hindi ba?

Sa ngayon, saka na muna ang pangangarap na maging World Champion... Sa ngayon, kailangan ko munang mag concentrate para sa Try Outs... Sana walang mangyaring masama sa aming laro, at sana makuha ko kahit papano ang puwesto...

Mga ka blogmates... Ngayon ko na talaga kailangan ang Suporta ninyo... Sana ipagdasal ninyo ako at wag niyo akong iiwan sa ere... This is it... Ito na ang pagkakataon upang maipakita ko ang lahat ng napraktis ko... I'm gonna make you guys proud... Wish me luck!

Maraming salamat sa Inyo...

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Guys... My blogger friend is still in the Hospital right now... Suffering from dengue... Please isama niyo rin siya sa prayers nyo and let's hope she would get better soon... Thank you...

posted by icarus_05 @ 6:16 PM Comments: 2

Wednesday, September 27, 2006


Until the sun sets and we say Goodbye...


Maybe, you have read this story from me many times... I want to share it once more... So bear with me guys! heehee.. :) Seatwork namin ito noon sa English... Gusto ko lang i-share...

Darkness came, as it slowly blinds my eyes...

It was a silent afternoon, the wind was soothing as it cuddles my soul into this never ending feeling of peace... Everyone was taking their mid afternoon rest but I was not... Sitting in a cottage, I held my guitar; singing the songs you've been singin to me since the day we met... Hoping you could hear me and hoping you will sit beside me... I wasn't alone, for the birds were there to sing with me, but still... I'm still hoping it was you...

Somehow, I heard your voice... You called me, and waved your hands... You smiled, I too was smiling... I asked you to come sit beside me, you never turned down my request...

Now I sit here, looking at your eyes... Everything was spinning, the winds were smiling as they whispered to me the words that I should say to you... "Tell her! Tell her now!"... I only looked into your eyes, that magically brown eyes... As if the sun is rising in it... It was glowing, probably with happiness... I can see it through your every smile... Then you sang our song... That calming voice that soothes my tired and worried soul... I felt freedom... I felt freedom when I'm with you... This is what I truly wanted all along... I wanted you all along... To be here beside me, at our paradise...

You asked me to join you guys to go to the seashore... The day was perfect for a plunge... Of course I came along... But all I did was to watch you there... Every laughter, every smile you shared to your friends... I was envious back then, but you looked at me... Shared a smile... That was the most beautiful smile I have ever seen...

The sun was starting to say goodbye... The darkness was coming fast... But then you didn't move... "What's wrong? Come on, let's go..." I told you... Still you didn't budge... "Let us stay here for a while... I'm waiting for something..." Curious as always, I sat at the seashore with you...

I started to wander but it all worn off when you smiled and pointed at the horizon... It was a wonderful sight... The sun was starting to set... Slowly, it hides into the horizon, waving at us as it shared its light... We were glowing... I felt love in the air... I clinged into your arms as you held my hand at that moment... Then we shared our dreams, our inspirations, and our promise... A promise I will never forget... You and I, until the sun sets... You and I until darkness rules the world... You and I, forever...

The wind was getting colder as the moon started to show her face... But then you still didn't budge... You moved even more closer, you clinged harder to me... I can't move... I never wanted to move... I don't want the sun to set... I don't want you to leave my sight again... I don't want the past... I don't want the Future... I just want the present... The present to stand still... So I can be with you always... We looked at the heavens, the universe was with us... Clearly showing to us the love we had back then... I still love you... Before, now, and forever will be...

Goodbye, why does it have to end this way?
Goodbye, why do we have to walk away?
Goodbye, hold my hand and never let go...
Goodbye, Let me tell you that I love you so...
For one last time... One last time...
Until the sun sets, and we say goodbye...
-icarus05

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Monday, September 25, 2006


Why are you still Haunting me?!..


I'm trying to get you out of my life... Yet...

Bakit ganon? Pilit na kitang kinakalimutan pero lagi kang nagpaparamdam... Tapos na ang lahat... Hindi na maibabalik pa ang nakaraan... Oo, ginusto ko dating maibalik iyon, pero wala na talaga, naglaho na nang tuluyan... Kelan mo ba ko lulubayan? Move on... As I do too...

Harsh ba? Ewan... Yan nararamdaman ko ngayon matapos kong malaman na ginagamit niya ang pangalan ko... As E-mail address... Ano ba dapat kong maramdaman? Hindi eh.. Hindi ako flattered... Medyo nakaka... nakaka ano.. ewan.. GRRR!!!! Hindi ko alam kung ano bang mararamdaman ko... Haay... Basta...

Sorry for the lame post... Naglalabas lang ng sama ng loob... Ang susunod na mababasa ay kailangan ng patnubay ng magulang...

PUNYETA! ANAK NG PAKSHET! AMPOTANESS! Bakit ba kailangan pang gamitin ang pangalan ko?! Ang tagal na non, nakalimutan ko na iyon... Pero, ayan ka nanaman, bumabalik... Ayoko na... Nagsinungaling ka sa akin... Nagsinungaling ka... Ilang beses mo akong pinaiyak, ilang beses mo akong binalak na iwanan nung tayo pa... At ngayon, nagpaparamdam ka na? Ano ba... Ang gulo... Tama na... Magulo na lablayp ko, pwede ba... Ayoko nang may dumagdag pa... Haay... Masyado nang magulo ang buhay ko... Ni wala na akong panahon para sa sarili ko... Tama na, ayaw na kitang masktan pa... Panahon na para umalis ka na sa anino ko... Panahon na para mag move on ka... Hindi lang ako ang lalaki sa mundo, marami pang iba jan na mas deserving sa pagmamahal mo... Wala akong kwenta... Napahamak ka lang dahil sa akin... Nagulo lang ang buhay mo dahil sa akin... Bakit ba? Ano bang meron sa akin at di mo ako maiwan-iwanan?..

Siguro, matapos niyong basahin ito... Iba na ang magiging tingin niyo sa akin... Ang maskara ng love life ko... Tuluyan nang nababasag... May masaklap akong nakaraan... Ayoko nang ikwento pa, baka hindi ko na kayanin at magwala nanaman ako tulad ng dati... Nawa'y intindihin ninyo ang kalagayan ko... Siya ang girlfriend ko dati... Mag iisang taon na din kaming hiwalay, pero ewan ko... Hanggang ngayon daw ay may pagtingin pa siya... Ayon, ginamit pa ang pangalan ko sa email address niya... Iyon lang naman ang kinagagalit ko eh... Ewan ok ba, sa tuwing nakikita ko siya, may nararamdaman na akong takot sa kanya... Kakaibang takot... Ewan, takot na ako sa bawat tingin niya, takot na ako pag naririnig ko ang boses niya... siguro takot na akong masaktan muli, takot na akong saktan siya...

Ngayong nakahanap na ako ng iba, panibagong buhay na ang kinakaharap ko... Pilit ko nang binabago ang sarili ko... Pilit ko nang binabago ang asal ko... Salamat sa kanya, natuto na ako... Salamat sa kanya, nalaman ko na ang dapat na gawin...

Masaya na ako... Naka move-on na ako... Sana ikaw rin... If you really love me, then please, let me go... Hangad ko lang naman ang kaligayahan mo... Marahil ang kaligayahang hatid ko sa iyo ay pansamantala lamang, alam kong, nariyan lang siya upang ibigay sa iyo ang kaligayahang tunay mong hinahangad... I'm really sorry... Tandaan mong, lagi kang kasama sa bawat panalangin ko... Thank you... Thank you for the memories...

lame post... Basahin niyo na lang ung last post ko... This is pure nonsense...

posted by icarus_05 @ 8:32 AM Comments: 10

Sunday, September 24, 2006


For the Love of the Game...


I love this game...

You guys probably know what game I'm talking about here... Yes... Bowling...

This is the only sport I excel in... Believe it or not... I have the height for basketball yet, I don't know how to dribble... I have the speed for volleyball yet, I don't know how to set a game... I'm not "buff" and I admit, I have weak arms... But still, bowling changed my life...

I started playing this sport when I am in 3rd year Highschool... That was 2 or 3 years ago... Those were the days when our family play the game together... But it seems those days are gone now because of busy schedules... Anyway... From the moment I played it, I immediately fell in love with it, I don't want to stop... Kung hindi lang mahal 'tong larong 'to malamang nasa bowling center na ako magdamag! I joined in some bowling clinics / lessons which I met our coach, Mon Camba and her wife, Cristie Camba... Coach Mon is a very quiet person, but I can see he is dedicated in teaching us how to play... After few months, Coach recommended us in a PBC Developmental Club... Which was TBAM or Tenpin Bowling Association of Makati... Me and my sister joined in some tournaments but won nothing except for experience of course...

Then comes 4th year Highschool... As some of you guys know, lumipat ako ng school, I studied at my father's hometown which is Infanta, Quezon... My bowling days stopped for 1 year... I lost my play and I missed many experiences... After a few months, I learned from my dad that my sister was "discovered" by a National Team coach, kaya ngayon, nasa Developmental Pool siya ng Team Philippines... I was so envious back then but also happy for my sister for making it... You guys probably saw the Article of Philippine Daily Inquirer which featured the Philippine National Pool, my sister was there...

Now, I returned here in Manila, and I told myself... It's now my turn to shine... This June, nag praktis ako ng nag praktis, umaasa na sana bumalik yung dati kong laro... Matagal tagal din akong hindi nakapaglaro at medyo sablay na ako... But then, coach was still there, he helped me cope up with everything I missed... And he brought a friend... He owns AD-Style Signages Mktg... Their company makes all the signages of all SM Malls all over Philippines... Even those major shops inside of it... For example na lang ay yung malaking SM sa labas, sila gumawa non... From the moment I heard this, I can say, sobrang yaman niya, at talagang maimpluewnsiya... He saw us playing, and offered us a sponsorship... Of course we accepted it... That's why I've been busy this past few weeks, it's because of our MWF training, and tournaments every saturday...

Tinanong ako ng kapatid ko kanina, kung gusto ko raw bang mag Try-Out para sa National Team... Siyempre, pumayag ako! It will start this coming saturday... Sana lang makuha ako... And ang kapatid ko... If we make it, I'll promise that I will make this country proud... Pero medyo nakakainis din dahil, hindi sikat ang Bowling sa Pilipinas... Kung manalo man kami sa Mundo, walang pakialam ang masang pinoy... Dahil mas abala sila sa paghihintay ng panalo ni Pacquiao at pag gawa ng banderitas para sa kanyang Victory party...

Marami akong natutunan sa larong ito... This game requires a lot of DISCIPLINE! Dapat cool lang lagi at wag mainitin ang ulo... Pag madali kang magalit, then this game is not for you... Although kung gusto mong magbago ang trait mo na iyon, then you must try this sport... I learned lately that this game is a Mind Game... Yep, a mind game... For those guys who think that ang bowling ay isang pisikal na laro dahil sa dapat gumamit ng puwersa sa pagbato ng bola, then your wrong... Mas mind game pa siya kaysa sa Chess believe it or not... Dahil kung ikukumpara sa Chess, sa chess may kalaban ka, strategies are made para manalo ka sa opponent mo... Pero sa bowling, ang kalaban mo lang ay sarili mo... Dahil, kapag nagalit ka na o nainis o napikon... Wala na... Sira na ang laro mo... Kapag na mental block ka na at di na alam kung san ibabato ang bola, wala na... Sira na ang laro mo... Oo, ito ang problema ko... Madali akong mainis, this goes to show na talagang kailangan ko pa ng practice...

Hindi maalis sa isipan ko ang mga katagang binanggit ng asawa ng aming coach sa akin... "Huwag mo na isipin ang nangyari na, wag mo nang isipin ang huli mong tira, isipin mo ang susunod at siguraduhin mong mataas ang magagawa mong score..." Kung inyong pagninilayan, applicable siya sa totoong buhay.. Hindi lang sa sport na ito... Huwag isipin ang nangyari na... Magsumikap at tumanaw ng magandang buhay sa hinaharap...

I really hope I can make it to the try-outs... Pray for me, and wish me luck...

posted by icarus_05 @ 7:33 AM Comments: 10

Friday, September 22, 2006


Random...


I was tagged by: Rob

INSTRUCTIONS:

List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words or even if they’re not any good, but they must be songs you’re really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your blog along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they’re listening to.

Parokya ni Edgar - Ted Hannah
Rocksteddy - Smile at Me
Urbandub - Endless, A silent whisper
Urbandub - New Tatoo
Moonstar 88 - Sayang
Moonstar 88 - I'm Sorry
Moonstar 88 - Panaginip

Marami pa akong kinagigiliwan ngayon, lahat ng nakasalampak sa iPod ko... Pero kailangang sundin ang patakaran.. Pito lamang...

Alam kong marami ang busy ngayon... Maski ako... Kaya wala na lang akong itatag... Kung gusto niyo siyang gawin, malaya kayo sa inyong nais! :)

Bukas na lang ako magpopost ng matino... Iisip pa ko! hehe..

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Tutal, Musika na rin ang pinaguusapan... Nakita ko to noon sa blog ni Karla... Kaya tinry ko...

MECHANICS:
Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 30 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 5: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is cheating. no cheating, please.

Put your answers / guesses at the comment box! Wag sa tagboard! hehe...

1.Habulan! Taguan! sa munting paraiso'y magmahalan...
Sayang - Moonstar 88 ... Karla

2.If you choose to stay with me, I'll spend my life with you...
If - Rivermaya ... Karla

3.It's not how I planned it... I got the keys to the door, but it just won't open...

4.Kung kailangan mo ng mahihingahan, at wala ng ibang matatakbuhan... Narito ako, handang makinig sa iyo...

5.In every breath and every word I hear your name calling me out Out from the barrio, you hear my rhythm on your radio You feel the turning of the world so soft and slow Turning you round and round...

6.how can i make u feel, that i want to hold you near... ache to feel ur hand caress my soul...

7.Handa nang tawirin, handa nang harapin ang mundo...
Gising na - Rocksteddy ... Karla

8.Di ko nga alam, kung bakit ganito... Inaaway kita pero sinusuyo... Siguro ganyan talaga, magmahal ng sobra...
Pasensya na - Moonstar 88 ... Karla

9.Ikaw lang ang matayog na bituin, Ikaw lang ang nais kong abutin...

10.nagmamasid ang mga mata, sa iyong kinalalagyan... Ba't di kaya tayo gumala, trip mo bang sumama?
Trip - 6Cycle Mind ... Karla

11.Once around the floor can we do it again?
Endless, A silent whisper - Urbandub ... Karla

12.Ngunit bakit ngayon? Malamig na bigla, magdamag nasa tabi mo, wala mang lang Hello... (Ouch)

13.The stars are bound to die, it all makes no sense, i can't take the chance, i don't want to see you go...
Close to the End - Mojofly ... Karla

14.I’d rather it be me In this tragic comedy... I’m glad you’re not here

15.Kung hindi tapos paano na? Nawalan ng kuryente, tunaw pa ang kandila... Sana bumagyo... Sana walang pasok bukas..

16.I doubt in your wounds, forgotten many times, my Lord I'm sorry I question you every night...

17.Dito kami sa bayan ko, tuloy ang ligaya... Kahit walang panggastos sumasabog sa saya!

18.We like our fun and we never fight, You can't dance and stay uptight... It's a supernatural delight...

19.I had it all, memorized the lines in my head... Thinking I'd be winning your smile, once again... I'm Sorry - Moonstar 88 ... Karla

20.Ngiti ko ang iyong dala, langit ko ang iyong kandungan... Permiso sa isang araw na makasama ka...
Taning - Imago ... Karla

posted by icarus_05 @ 7:46 AM Comments: 10

Monday, September 18, 2006


Our Last Anniversary...


The Rain Falls Heavily Tonight…

I’m standing here, beyond the clouds… As cold winds touched my skin… I’m searching for you behind the horizon… Through the birds I send my message… I want to say I’m sorry but I don’t know how… It’s been weeks since I’ve been apart to you, even though I’m here in paradise, I can’t help but cry… The rain continuously falls down, it seems that it felt my feelings; the clouds joined me as I cry out loud…

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry..."

I woke up one morning, the sun was shining brightly that it blinded my sleepy eyes… I was smiling, very excited… For that day was our anniversary… I had been planning this day since the day we’ve been together… I got up, took a bath, ate my breakfast and got on to my motorcycle for a stroll outside…

Messages from you occupied my cellphone, but I didn’t answer. You’re starting to get angry, but I didn’t mind… For I didn’t want to be disturbed, I don’t want to spoil the surprise…

As I rode my motorcycle, I really can’t tell what I felt, it seems like someone’s watching me… I felt uneasy… Although I didn’t mind it, for it may distract my momentum. I was getting closer and closer to your location, my heart starts beating faster and faster… After a while, a familiar face is now visible… It was you standing there, waiting for me patiently, your face was shining and your eyes were sparkling… You were beautiful that day… I felt love in the air; I felt love as I came closer to you… I’m falling in love with you all over again…

You greeted me with a kiss, “Let’s go?” I asked… you just nodded your head, rode in my motorcycle and took you to this place… But as we rode through our destination, I felt a sudden urge of discomfort… I felt nervous… But it all faded away when you hugged me tightly and whispered words of love at my ear...

As soon as we arrived, it was already nightfall… The scene was perfect; the view here is magnificent… Just like before… “What are we doing here?” you asked…

“Don’t you still remember?”
“Remember what?”
“This place… This is the very same spot where I met you…”
*A soft smile was visible upon her face… She was blushing…*
“Yes… I remember now… But why here?”
“Because, this is the place where I fell in love with you… One year has passed since then, but I want to start again here, this place is special to me, for this is the place where I met you... And this is the place where I will ask you...”
“Ask what?”
“My love, will you grow old with me?”
“Seriously?”

I gave her a ring and it slowly placed it to her finger, she smiled as tears fell from her eyes… She hugged me right away… Crying out loud… I felt it, she was happy… Very happy, as I was too…

“Don’t ever be afraid ok? Remember no matter happens, I will always be with you…”

We went home as soon as the sun shown its glory… We were happy as we rode down the long and winding rode… I wasn’t feeling very easy… I heard voices calling me… And it seems that someone is watching me from afar… I knew there was something wrong… I knew that something will happen… But I didn’t expected it to be this early… My heart was beating faster… I’m losing my mind… But then you hugged me tightly… For a short while, I felt eased…

I knew she felt it, we were driving very fast… She was afraid, shouted every second of our trip… I told her not to be scared; I gave her my helmet and went on…

All of a sudden, it all happened… It all happened so fast… My motorcycle went out of control, for one last time, I took a glimpse of her… “I love you… I’m sorry…” I whispered…


I’m here, watching you from afar… You still can’t get over it… You never stopped crying… And it tears me apart… Then God stood beside me… He asked me about something… And I answered him honestly… He then nodded his head with agreement… Suddenly, the rain stopped… He whispered words of hope unto my ears…

“My child… Go to her… Make her happy once more…”

The next thing I knew... I am back in that place again... I'm looking at the magnificent view when you sat beside me... Kissed me and said...

"Good Morning honey..."

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Saturday, September 16, 2006


The Hymn of the Tree...


The night was ours...

The stars are shining brightly that night, you clinged into my arms and I held your soft hands... Seems the two of us never wanted to let go... I really don't want to let go... I don't want this night to end...

Under a tree we lie down, looking at the stars and counting them as the universe blanketed us with its infinity... A cold breeze caressed us, carried us and made us fly, fly high in this night sky... I was smiling, and you are too. We never thought that our lives will be as good as we dreamt it to be... To think that, in this place... In this place, it all started...


I was trying to find a perfect spot that day, so I can lie down for a while and take a rest... While I was walking around this large garden near the seashore, I heard a voice... A lady's voice... It was the most beautiful hymn I had ever heard in my entire life.. She was singing, singing her heart out... Although, I felt her feelings, she was sad that time... I moved closer, is it probably because I want to hear more? is it probably because she is beautiful? or is it because, I want to help her? Whatever the reasons may be... I made up my mind...

She was sitting in this large tree, a tree that seemed to stood there for almost a century now... It was a very nice spot for a rest, but it became perfect when I met her there... I came closer and gave her a flower... The most beautiful flower in the garden, next to her... She smiled as tears fell from her eyes... She murmured her first words to me... "Thank you so much..." "Thank you for what?" I asked curiously... Then she pointed me the flower I gave... I smiled gently at her... As easy as that, I've fallen in love with her... Slowly, she came closer, I got the chance to know her more... We became closer to each other... But then the day has to end so sudden, the sun wave its hands to us, as he descends from the heavens unto the never ending horizon... We watched him, amazed by his beauty... I looked at her eyes... It was sparkling, probably because of the light that the sunset shared to us... But it was different... Somehow, I felt her feelings again... She was happy, contented... I don't know why...

Everyday, as I go to this place you're always there, the only difference is, you don't sing those sad songs anymore... Every melody of your song, I felt your joy, every words you utter always makes me smile... Everyday, we grow closer to each other, we were in love... And I had this feeling of gladness that I wouldn't wanted to take away... But what if she leaves? Just like that?.. I don't want her to leave... Never...

Time flies so fast, when I'm with you... Seems like the sun is always running ang making way to the moon... Day turned into a night... But this night was different... I felt strange...

The stars are shining brightly that night, you clinged into my arms and I held your soft hands... Seems the two of us never wanted to let go... I really don't want to let go... I don't want this night to end... Then she uttered again those words... "Thank You" she said happily... "Thanks for what?"... I asked... She brought out the flower that I gave her when we first met... "Thank you, for this..." ... "You already thanked me... No need..." ... "Thank you too, for coming into my life..." She said... I Just smiled embraced her and suddenly she closed her eyes took a nap on my shoulder... She was very peaceful, then a small mark of smile was visible upon her face...

I slowly opened my eyes... To my surprise, she was not there... Nobody was there... I looked at the large tree that was in front of me... The tree moved slightly as if it was waving at me... Nothing really happened... It was only a dream... But then again... It felt so real... I looked at the tree once more... And to my amusement... The tree was not old anymore... It was blooming with flowers around it... I moved closer... And was shocked by the object that I saw... I saw a... I saw a tombstone... With her name, written all over it... Tears flowed from my eyes... Then I looked at my hands, and saw something peculiar... I'm holding a flower...

I closed my eyes for one last moment...
Smiled gently and offered the flower to her...
Somehow... Maybe somehow...
I am satisfied...

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posted by icarus_05 @ 1:04 AM Comments: 20

Wednesday, September 13, 2006


The Taste of Love Part3...


There and back again...

Nabuhayan ako at muling ginananahanng maglaro, dahil nandoon kang muli upang sumuporta... Nandoon ka muli upang magbigay ng masasarap na meryenda, nandoon ka muli... Ang inspirasyon ko sa bawat bato ng bola...

Ngunit wala pa rin akong magawa, hindi ko pa rin masabi ang aking tunay na nararamdaman sa iyo... Ewan, natatakot talaga ako... Iniisip ko na baka hindi mo ako tanggapin, dahil mas bata ako sa iyo... Masakit man sa akin, pinili ko na lang manahimik... Minahal kita ng patago... Minahal kita, pero hanggan saan naman kaya ito tutungo?

Isang gabi, muli ka nanamang nawala, hindi nanaman ikaw ang naka assign sa stall... Hinanap kita sa mga staff doon, ngunit hindi rin nila alam ang iyong daliang pagkawala... Wala na akong nagawa, bumili na ako ng Ice Coffee at ng dalawang donut at dumerecho na sa lanes upang makapaglaro...

Lumalalim na ang gabi, pagod na kami ng kapatid ko sa paglalaro, alas nuebe na noon, at pasara na ang mga tindahan sa loob ng mall, pati ang nasabing food stall... Minasdan kong mabuti ang pagsara ng stall, umaasa akong baka makita kitang muli, bago man lang kami umuwi... Tama ang hinala ko... Naroon ka, nakaupo katabi ng kaherang nakaassign sa araw na yaon... Naka sibilyan ka at naka make up... Nagulat ako, dahil unang pagkakataon ko pa lang siyang nakitang naka suot ng ganoon... Iba, nagmukha siyang mas bata... Lalong naging blooming ang kanyang mukha... Maganda... Sobrang ganda... Ngunit wala akong nagawa... Minadali kong niligpit ang gamit ko, binuhat na ang 14 pounds na bola at tumingin muli sa istall... Habang pinupunasan ang aking bola, nakita kitang tumatakbo, tila nagmamadali papalabas... Sinundan kita ng tingin... Ako'y nabigla sa aking nakita...

Ika'y lumapit sa isang binata... Matipuno ang pangangatawan at totoong kagwapuhan... Niyakap mo ito at binanatan ng halik sa pisngi... Hinawakan niya ang kamay mo at dalian nang umalis... Dahan dahan kang nawawala sa paningin ko... Papalayo sa damdamin ko... Naglalaho na lang bigla sa puso ko... Napatayo ako ng matagal, muntik nang bumagsak ang hawak kong bola... Buti na lang at ginising ako ng kapatid ko sa bangungot na ito... Ginising niya ako... Wala na akong nagawa... Wala na talaga... Niligpit na ang gamit ko... At umupo panandali... Nag iisip, at napaluha ng kaunti...

Nariyan na ang aming sundo... Palabas na sana ako nang makita ko siyang nakaupo sa mga bangko sa loob... Tinawag ko siya... Tumingin siya sa akin, ngumiti at kumaway...


Wala na akong nagawa kundi ang kumaway na rin...


Paalam, paalam...
Muli nanaman akong naiwan...
Sa mundo ng pag ibig na aking kinatatayuan...
Kailan na bibitawan, ang bigat na aking pasan?..


Iyon na pala ang huli kong kaway sa kanya... Iyon na rin ang huling pagkakataon na makikita ko siyang ngumiti... Ayon sa bagong kahera, na assign ka na raw sa iba... Hindi sa ibang stall, ngunit, sa ibang mall... Hindi na pala talaga kita makikita... Hindi na...
Wakas...

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posted by icarus_05 @ 12:26 AM Comments: 12

Monday, September 11, 2006


The Taste of Love Part2...


I didn't saw it coming...

Araw-araw ng aming pagbalik sa bowling center, siya lagi ang una kong hinahanap... Lagi akong bumibili sa kanya, mapa donut o Ice coffee man iyon... Kung baga, ako ang nag iisa niyang suki... Ako lagi ang pumapakyaw ng kanyang paninda... Ginagawa ko iyon para lang mapalapit at makausap siya...

Di nagtagal, naging malapit kami sa isa't isa. Nakakabiruan ko na at open na kami sa isa't isa... Pero hindi ko pa rin sinasabi sa kanya ang nararamdaman ko.. Ewan, hindi ko alam kung papaano... Bawat strike na nagagawa ko, lagi siyang pumapalakpak. Bawat kapalpakan naman na ginagawa ko, lagi niyang sinasabing "Ok lang yan!". Ginaganahan ako, na maglaro araw-araw... Napakagaling niya, ewan ko ba kung anong meron siya... Grabe, ang bilis kong nahulog sa kanya...

Habang lumilipas ang panahon, bihira ko na siyang makita... Hindi ko alam kung bakit... Isang araw lumapit ako sa kanya... Luhaan siya habang nagbibilang ng kinita... Tinanong ko siya kung bakit...

"O, bakit ka umiiyak?"
"*sob* I-aasign na daw ako sa main store..."
"O, ayaw mo non? Mas malaki kita mo..."
"Oo nga, pero ayoko doon! Marami na akong kilala dito, masaya na ako dito"
"Ganun ba, bakit hindi mo iyan sabihin sa kanila?"
"Ayoko nga, baka sabihin nila ang demanding ko..."
"Kesa naman sa hindi ka masaya sa trabaho mo diba?"
"Oo nga... Ewan, bahala na..."
""Haay.. Hayaan mo, bibisitahin kita araw-araw sa main!"
"Haha, ok lang! Kahit wag na..."
"Asus! Hehe, sige, pagbili na lang ng donut, libre kita :P"
"Salamat..."

Lumitaw ang ngiti sa kanyang labi, at nag punas siya ng luhang unti-unti nang nalalaglag... Marahil ay napasaya ko siya, marahil din ay hindi... Pero isa lang ang nagpabagabag sa aking damdamin... Paano na ako makakalaro ng maayos? Kung wala na siya para suportahan ang bawat bato ko? Kung wala nang pumupuri sa akin tuwing nakakstrike ako? Kung wala na siya, wala na sa piling ko...

Lumipas ang panahon... Nawalan ako ng ganang maglaro... Iba na ang nakikita ko sa counter, isang magandang dalaga rin ngunit, It's not the same... Hindi ko nararamdaman ang nararamdaman ko sa kanya... Nasira ang laro ko...

Araw-araw, pagkagaling sa eskwela, dumadaan ako sa main shop, ngunit hindi ko siya nakikita, bawat Donut stalls sa buong mall pinupuntahan ko, wala talaga siya... Hindi ko na siya nakikita... Marahil ay hindi na muli pa... Hindi ko pa nasasabi sa kanya... Paano na?

Lumipas ang ilang buwan... Pumasok ako ng Bowling Center... Hindi na akong nag abalang tumingin pa sa stall, dahil alam kong hindi ko naman siya makikita... Binulungan ako ng aking kapatid... "Kuya, bili mo ko Ice Coffee..." Nakasanayan na namin ang bumili nito, nung siya pa ang kahera... Binigay niya sa akin ang pera, lumapit ako sa istall sinabing, "Pabili nga pong ice coffee..." Habang binibilang ko ang aking dalang salapi... "Anong Size?" nagulat ako... Pamilyar ang boses na iyon!.. Tinignan ko... Tama ang hinala ko... Siya nga! Muli kaming nagkita... Matagal na nagkatinginan ang mga mata...

To be continued...

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posted by icarus_05 @ 7:02 AM Comments: 8

Friday, September 08, 2006


The Taste of Love...


Every bite I make, I think of you...

Isang boring na araw ang naganap... Wala talagang magawa no'n, ni walang palabas sa telebisyon, ni walang malaro sa playstation... Nakakatamad, nakakaantok, pero ayokong matulog... Inaya ako ng kapatid kong mag bowling para naman daw may magawa kami... Agad naman akong sumangayon... Wala na rin akong praktis at talagang nakakatamad na sa bahay...

Dumating kami ng bowling center, pare parehong mukha pa rin ang nakikita ko... Wala pa ring pagbabago... Pero may napansin akong bago sa paningin ko... Ang dating plain na bowling center, ngayon ay mga maliliit na food stalls na... Mas gaganahan na akong maglaro niyan dahil may pagkain na sa paligid... Habang ako'y nagmamasid, mayroon akong napansin... Hindi pagkain, kundi isang tao... Isang dalaga... Nandoon siya, nag seserve at nagtitinda sa isang food stall na nabanggit... Kakaiba ang naramdaman ko no'n... Para bang, bigla akong nagutom, at hinihila ako ng katawan ko papunta sa food stall na iyon... Tumingin sa akin ang dalaga... Nakangiti siya at tila namumula... Nginitian ko lang din siya sabay sabi niyang... "Good Afternoon sir! Ano pong order nila?"... Tulala lang ako kanyang kagandahan... Hindi ako makagalaw... Tapos, napansin kong kinakawayan na niya ako... "Sir... Ano pong order nila?" *chuckles*... Tulala pa rin ako, pero nagawa kong ituro ang aking gustong bilhin... Tumawa lang siya, agad niyang kinuha at ibinigay sa akin... Inabot ko ang bayad ko, at biglang napahaplos ang kanyang malalambot na kamay sa aking kamay sabay sabing... "Thank you sir! Come Again!"... Oo, talagang babalik ako... Umupo ako isang bangko at kinain na ang binili kong Strawberry Filled Donut... Sa mahilig sa donut, marahil ay alam niyo kung gano kadungis ang pagkaing ito sa bibig... Dahil sa pagmamadali ko at medyo nahihiya ako, nakalimutan kong humingi ng tissue... Pero di ko napansin na wala pala akong tissue na dala... Kain lang ako ng kain, sabay ng nanakaw ng tanaw sa kanya... Pero napansin kong medyo tumatawa siya, lumingon ako para umiwas, marahil ay nakita niya akong tumitingin sa kanya... Nang sumulyap muli ako, nawala siya sa stall, hinanap ko siya... Hinanap ko... Nang biglang may kumalabit sa likod ko... Agad akong lumingon at nagulat sa nakita ko... Nasa harapan ko siya, nakangiti... Sabay may inabot sa akin... "Sir, Tissue po oh..." OH MY GOD! Iyon na lang ang reaksyon ko, ngumiti lang siyang muli, sabay naman ang daliang pag punas ko sa aking bibig na punong puno na pala ng puting pulbo na galing sa nasabing donut... Ngumiti ako at agad na tumalikod at tumakbo na sa Lane namin... Tawa lang ako ng tawa at namumula... Pero, iba... Ang saya...

To be continued...

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posted by icarus_05 @ 6:22 AM Comments: 12



Unusual?..


Being in love, in an unusual way...

Have you ever been in-love? Though you're never sure if its right or not?

Have you ever been in-love? Though you're afraid to tell her, coz you don't know how?

Have you ever been in-love? Even though you know it's wrong?

Have you ever been in-love? Of someone you never thought you'll fall to?

Have you ever been in-love? Even though, you haven't met each other yet?

Have you ever been in-love? To a fellow blogger?...

posted by icarus_05 @ 12:51 AM Comments: 9

Thursday, September 07, 2006


False Alarm...


I'm getting paranoid...

I don't know why, but I think I'm getting paranoid this past few days... As you guys can see... Di ko alam... Siguro talagang namimiss ko lang siya... Mali naman pala ang lahat ng hinala ko... Tama palang busy lang siya. Wala naman akong magagawa kung wala siyang oras, basta alam kong maayos siya, ok na sa akin yon... Pero ewan ko kung bakit nagiging paranoid ako... Feeling ko, napaka possessive ko... Para bang wala akong tiwala sa kanya... Bakit ba? Alam ko, wala naman akong karapatan... Ewan... Tulad nga ng lagi kong sinasabi... "It's not that I don't trust her... I just don't trust them..." Magbabago na ko... Dapat isipin ko na lang ang mga positibo... Isipin ko na lang (at gawin na rin) na mahal ko siya... Iyon ang totoo... At hindi na iyon magbabago...

Sorry sa short post... Hehe... Bukas ako babawi... Isa nanamang series... Ahihi! Inspired eh! Abangan niyo yun guys!

Iboto naman sana natin si Karlaloveschocolate para sa Filipino Blog of the Week... She really deserve the title! Thanks Guys!

posted by icarus_05 @ 6:56 AM Comments: 15

Wednesday, September 06, 2006


Never Ending Rain...


When will be the next sunshine?

Everyday passes by so quickly, but I didn't mind... I just I didn't mind the fact that every single moment wasted, I'm going crazy... Every moment passed, slowly kills my soul... But I didn't mind... Everyday, there's always tears, leaving my eyes... Althought I didn't mind... I never mind at all...

Oo, wala akong pakialam kung ano man ang mangyari sa buhay ko... Wala akong pakialam kung ano mang mangyari sa hinaharap... Wala na akong pakialam sa mundo... Dahil, wala na siya para paikutin ito... Pero kanina, nagising ako sa tunay na mundo, nagising ako na wala sa aking sariling paraiso... Panahon na para bumangon ako sa totoong buhay... Hindi lang sa pangarap na iniikutan ko habambuhay... Nagkaroon na ako ng pakialam... Nang magising ako, wala na ang lahat sa akin... Sirang-sira na pala ang buhay ko, ngayon ko lang namalayan... Sirang-sira na pala ang mundo ko, puno na ng basura, at maraming butas na dinadaluyan ng sandamakmak na dugo... Gumising ko, hindi namamalayan na wala na pala akong dadatnan... Bakit ganito? Anong ginawa ko sa buhay ko?

Pero, gising na ba talaga ako? Ewan... Hindi ko rin alam... Mayroon pa ring parte ng puso ko na naghihintay pa rin sa pagbabalik niya... Maayos pa rin ang espasyo niya sa aking puso, bulaklakin at dumadaloy ang musika, habang ang espasyo para sa sarili ko ay puno na ng mga bungo at kalansay... Ang tanga ko... Bakit ko pa hinayaan ang sarili kong magunaw na lang basta? Nang dahil lang sa isang tao? Parang hindi ako ito ah... Para akong gago... Nagpaka gago... Umasa sa wala... Putang ina! Sana, tinuloy ko na ang balak ko noong magpakamatay... Tutal sinimulan ko na rin noon, hindi ko pa tinapos... Bahala na kung san ako mapadpad... Sa langit na wala naman siya, o sa impyerno kung saan nababagay ang mga tangang katulad ko... Bahala na... Bahala na...

Unti-unti nang dumudulas ang kaluluwa ko... Wala nang kakapitan, wala nang hahawakan... Sino pa kaya ang sasalo sa akin? Aasa pa ba akong siya ang hahawak sa kamay kong unti-unti nang dumudulas? Unti-unti nang nauubos ang dugo sa aking puso... Aasa pa ba akong darating siya upang hilumin ang mga sugat nito? Sa tingin niyo... May pakialam pa ako? Fuck! Do you think I care anymore? Fuck! Sige na, hayaan mo na akong maglaho sa lagusang iniwan ko... Asa pa akong pipigilan mo ako...

Aanhin pa ang gitara, kung wala nang pag aalayan ng musika... Thank you God... *Sign of the Cross*

posted by icarus_05 @ 6:59 AM Comments: 4

Tuesday, September 05, 2006


Connected Decisions...


Finally, after some time, natapos din ang layout ko, pero wala namang masyadong nag bago... Inspired by Final Fantasy 8, at Dirge of Cerberus ang tema ng captions... First time ko kasing gumamit ng Flash, at medyo nalilito pa ako sa Photoshop... Sana magustuhan niyo, from blogskins parin yan, pero balang araw, gagawa din ako ng sarili kong layout... That's it for now... Thanks nga pala kay Karla sa tulong, siya gumawa halos lahat ng ito, kung hindi dahil sa kanya, hindi ito matatapos... Salamat talaga ng marami! Balang araw, makakabawi din ako sa iyo... Nominado nga pala siya, Nawa'y suportahan niyo siya tulad ng pagsuporta niyo sakin noon! Salamat! Dito kayo bumoto.

They are connected, somehow...

Medyo konektado ito sa post kong Twisted Decisions... Matapos ang ilang linggo, ito na ang naging desisyon ko... Maayos naman ang kinalalabasan...

Decision no. 1
Bowling Sponsorship... Tinanggap ko ang offer ng Ad-Style Signages Mktg. Kasama ng kapatid ko, officially sponsored na kami nito... Marami na rin kaming pinasukan na tournaments, at nanalo pa ako sa isa! First time kong sumali ng tournament, champion pa, salamat naman at nasa side ko ang chamba!.. Enjoy naman ako dito, medyo nawawala pansamantala ang mga problema ko, tuwing naglalaro ako nito... Marami na rin akong nakilala dahil sa larong ito, sana tuloy tuloy ang enjoyment na ito...

Decision no. 2
Music Career... Hindi ko pa rin tinalikuran ang Musika, kahit hindi na ako masyadong nakakagawa ng kanta ngayon (hindi inspired), nagkakaroon pa naman ako ng oras na makipag jamming sa mga classmates ko sa kolehiyo, may balak din kaming sumali sa Battle of the Bands sa UE sa Foundation Day nito ngaung setyembre... Pero mahirap pa rin talaga ang walang sariling instrumento sa bahay, hindi ako nakakapraktis masyado (drums)... Balak ko nga sanang gamitin ang perang maiipon ko sa mga panalo (kung meron man) ko sa bowling tournaments pang bili ng drumsets at ng kung anu-ano pa... Yun ay kung suswertehin at kung papahintulutan ng aking mga magulang...

Decision no. 3
Blogging... Need I say more? I won't leave blogging! Pero, medyo hindi na ako nakakapost ng madalas tulad ng dati, dahil sa bowling training... Kasama kasi iyong sa offer ng sponsor, libreng laro, libreng training, libreng practice... Time consuming nga pero nakakahanap pa naman ako ng panahon sa blogging... Thanks nga pala ulit sa mga sumuporta sa akin sa Filipino Blog of the Week noon! Sana suportahan niyo naman ang aking kaibigang si Karla, I think she really deserves the title, ang laki kasi ng natulong niya sa akin... Sa iba't ibang aspeto, I really want to return the favor... Sana tulungan niyo ako...

Decision no. 4
Love life... Hmm, sa ngayon, naghihintay pa rin ako... If you guys still remember, nagtatanong ako dati kung anong magandang iregalo sa kaniyang kaarawan... Medyo hindi natupad ang nasa imagination ko, pero buti na lang at to the rescue ang aking ama... Bumili siya ng Cellphone na 6600 ata ang model... Iyon na lang ang niregalo namin sa kanya, hindi ko alam kung nagustuhan ba niya, dahil ayon sa aking ama, gusto daw niya itong ibalik... Ewan ko kung bakit... Kaya ngayon, medyo nakakausap na kami ng madalas... Kaso tuwing may load lang siya, ngayong busy nanaman sila, hindi na rin siya masyadong nagpaparamdam... Ayos lang naman iyon sa akin, basta alam kong ligtas siya... Tama na muna ang kaartehan ko, kailangan din namang pagkatiwalaan ko siya... Tsaka, kung ano mang ginagawa niya, wala akong karapatang hadlangin ito... Hindi naman kami diba? Kapal naman ng mukha ko kung ganoon... Nag fe-feeling ika nga... Kaya heto pa rin ako, naghihintay... Sana, bumalik na ule ang inspirasyon ko para makagawa muli ako ng mga awiting para sa kanya...

Nagsisimula pa lang ang lahat... Marahil ay marami pang mangyayari sa hinaharap... Hindi natin alam kung anong mangyayari... Bahala na ang Diyos sa atin, siya lang ang tanging nakakaalam ng daan na dapat nating tahakin... "It's for him to know and us to find out" ika nga... Bahala na... Idaan sa musika ang problema...

posted by icarus_05 @ 8:09 AM Comments: 5

Saturday, September 02, 2006


Still, waiting in vain...


Sometimes, I wish I could just sleep myself to death...

Lately, I've been starting to wonder, if she really loved me before... If she really love me at all... Gulong gulo na ang utak ko, I've been searching for answers, everyday, every hour, every minute, every second... I'm starting to feel the insanity taking over my entire mind...

I haven't thought myself lately... All I ever thought of was being with her, seeing her once more, seeing her smile, hearing her laugh, hearing her sing, and hearing her speak... Even just a little hi... Damn, maybe I really just miss her so much, but... It's not normal anymore... I'm being careless, I'm broken all over, I can't even think of a decent post! And my english grammar really suck! So I'm gonna speak tagalog now...

Ewan ko ba, sirang sira na ang ulo ko... Sirang sira na ang katawan ko... Sirang sira na ang puso ko... Sirang sira na ang kaluluwa ko... Sobrang baliw na baliw na ako... Bakit?! Ganito ba talaga kapag todo ang pagmamahal na ibinigay mo sa isang tao? Nawawala ka na sa sarili?!

For weeks now, I'm not myself, para bang naliligaw ang tunay na katawan ko sa kadiliman... Parang patay na ang kaluluwa ko at isang empty shell na lang ang nakikita ngayon ng mga tao... Baliw na baliw, walang pakialam sa mundo... Dead man walking... My relationship with my friends was affected, I rarely talk to them this past few days... Even my grades are all crap! My midterm grades went down all at the same time, wala na lang akong ginawa sa eskwelahan kundi tumunganga... Pati pamilya ko nadadamay na sa problema ko... Nag away nanaman kami ni kuya kanina, mejo nagtatampo ang aking itay dahil sobrang baba ng iskor ko sa bowling kanina... I haven't talked to my mother for quite some time now... Ewan... Sirang sira na ang buhay ko...

I was so frustrated with my performance kanina sa bowling... Parang hindi ako ang naglalaro... My average fell down from 170+ to 140+... Last month lang, ang ganda ng scores ko, nag champion pa nga ako sa isang tournament... Hindi ko nga maintindihan kung bakit... Bakit ba lahat apektado? I even blamed my new ball for not giving me the scores I want!!! Kanina sa sobrang frustration, I threw the ball so hard... So hard that my arms may come off any moment... Sa sobrang lakas, nag snap ang wrist at ang joints ng aking elbow... Doon ko kanina nilabas ang lahat ng galit ko... Kung buhay lang ang bola ko, marahil ay kawawa siya, marahil ay naramdaman niya ang galit ko... Pagkatapos naming maglaro, I sat there for a while, pumikit ako, sumigaw at bigla na lang napaluha... Ubos na ubos na ang luha ko... Sobra...

Right now, I have an injury in my elbow, my biceps hurt like hell, tumataba na ang fingers ko dahil sa maga, I have a huge callous on my thumb, and my head hurts so bad... P*ta! ANO NA ANG NANGYAYARI SA AKIN?!!?!?! Ano na ang nangyayari sa atin?!

Lagi na lang pumapasok sa isipan ko ang maraming tanong... Pero isa lang talaga ang umiikot sa aking puso... "Minahal ba talaga niya ako noon? Minahal ba talaga niya ako? Kung oo, mahal pa kaya niya ako ngayon?" sabi nga nila, take the risk if you want something to be achieved... Pero mukhang di ko kakayanin ang magiging sagot niya kung sakali... Ayoko na ng ganito... Hindi ko na kaya ang maghintay pa... Hanggang kailan pa ba niya ako pahihirapan ng ganito?

Alam na ng buong mundo kung gaano ko siya kamahal, alam na ng buong ankan ko ang lab story ko... Siya kaya? Alam ba niya kung gaano ko siya kamahal? P*ta! Hindi pa ba obvious?! Ganito kita mahal! Pinapatay ko na sarili ko sa kaiisip ko sa iyo! Pinapatay ko na kaluluwa ko sa kakahintay sa iyo! Pinapatay ko na ang damdamin ko sa pag aasang mamahalin mo din ako... Oo, baliw na baliw ako sa iyo!

Summer is here, I'm still waiting there...
Winter is here, I'm still waiting there...
It's your love that I'm waiting for...
It's my love that you're running from...
How long should I wait in vain for your love?!

posted by icarus_05 @ 7:00 AM Comments: 13

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The Author

Pseudonym: Icarus05
Birthday: April 25, 1990
Address: Novaliches, Quezon City
Province: Infanta, Quezon
School: University of the East
Course: Computer Science

Sports: Bowling, Volleyball

Hobbies: Bowling, Playing Guitar, Writing Stories, Writing Songs, Chatting, Blog hopping, Stargazing, Flyff-ing, Playing Ragnarok

About me: Single and Waiting! ;) A night person, very passionate and dedicated to everything I do, A lover trying to find himself and his true place here in the world...

Lost in this cold place, Never knowing where to go, I need you, I need someone, I need anyone


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How she took my heart
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The Cure for the Common Hitch
A Dreamer's Lullaby
A Vision of a Broken Heart
Of Tears and Metamorphosis
Sa Mata ng Kalawakan
Panahon na Naman
The Lost Paradise
The Fate's Dagger
The Coin


Sign of Life




A way out of the darkness



The Island

I would like to thank...
  • Photoshop 9 CS2
  • Me for the patience.
  • Blogger for the Blog space.
  • Karla for the Template.
  • Utakgago for the photoshop and template tips.
  • And to you my fellow bloggers for welcoming me here.

Finally, with your support, I managed to grab the award! Thank you Guys so much! But still, Vote for your favorite blogs...
Vote for the deserving


4th Placer for week 14 and 15.

2nd Placer for week 16 and 17

Filipino Blog of The Week for Week 18


Hall of Famer through Fast Track

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