Days turned into Months...

I lie awake one night, I can't sleep even though 'twas already late, memories of her kept on occupying my mind...

I'm not thinking right lately, all I could ever think about is her, she's not returning my messages anymore, as if she's not really making any effort to do so... I'm turning half crazy everytime I don't see her name at my cellphone... 'Coz, I'm used to that... Every morning as the sun shines, she was always the first one to wake me up, with those sweet messages... But now, even a simple miss call cannot be seen...

At first, I thought that waiting for her was easy... I guess I was wrong... So wrong... Why? What have I done wrong for her to treat me like nothing at all? Never did I broke our promise, I never looked for another woman to replace her, everything I did was all for her, I kept myself busy so I won't miss her that much... No... I can't take it anymore... I can't handle everything alone... Alone... Alone...

I didn't mind the time, for I thought that the time would just flow freely and fast... Yes, it did... I've been waiting for six months now... Funny, it doesn't seem like me... Back at highschool, I was the "playboy" type of guy, I was not that patient... I guess she strucked me through... She changed who I am...

Everytime I go home to our province, the first thing I always do is to look for her... Hoping that we could talk and straighten things out... But no... Seems like she always does something to get away from me... She's always seen running around or doing something important... She won't talk to me... She won't even look at me even for just a second... I hope she can see that I am hurt, wounded and bruised everytime she does that... Asa pa ako...

I just wanted to continue our story, kahit ako na gumagawa ang gumagawa ng effort... Pero, anong magagawa ko kung ang taong pinaglalaban ko ay sinasabi nang talo na ko?.. Ayoko... Mahirap para sa kin na mawala siya, ewan ko ba... Ngayon pa nga lang magkalayo kami natataranta na ako... Haay... Ewan, hindi ko na maintindihan ang sarili ko... Magulo na ang love life ko...

Sabihin nyo nga sa akin... Please tulungan ninyo ako... Makatarungan pa ba kung ituloy ko pa rin ang paghihintay?..

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